Good Night To Our Lola

This wasn’t something we expected. The Wife took our cat Lola to the vet for the cat’s monthly arthritis shot. I was busy teaching an Excel class for the day job. The Wife suspected something was wrong because Lola’s stomach was rock hard.

Just have them give her a look. I said that and forgot about it as I focused on my class. After all, outside of her arthritis, Lola wasn’t one of our cats that I worried about. Which was why The Wife’s next message shocked me.

They looked at her and it doesn’t look good. You may want to come down here.

Fluid in the abdomen and chest. Lots. Vet was pretty sure it was cancer, but the only way to find out was exploratory surgery – and even with that it was most likely untreatable. The Wife made a promise to herself that she would not make one of her cats suffer just to comfort herself – and it’s a sentiment I share. We talked and decided Lola suffered enough. Gods damn it, I hate when it’s time to make that decision. Especially when we weren’t expecting it. I snapped one last picture before we said goodbye.

The Wife told me that she got kitty Lola as a playmate for our dearly departed Titus – who was a kitty himself – so that Titus would leave her older cat Spike alone. Instead, baby Lola attached herself to Spike, which meant Titus was still free to cause havoc.

When I came in to the picture, Lola was less than pleased. I think it took me the better part of two years before she finally accepted me. It helped that I was one of the humans that fed her. Still, The Wife was very much her person. I was just there as a somewhat useful accessory.

Lola was a sassy cat with a croaky meow when one of the other cats got closer than she wanted. I’m going to miss hearing that. I’m going to miss seeing her get into it with Freya – who I think Lola never really forgave us for bringing into Ward Manor. I’m going to miss her dancing on the cat tree when she thought treats were incoming. In short, I’m going to miss Lola.

Ward Manor Happenings – 08.20.26

Road Trip Happenings – Last Friday, The Wife and I decided to trek up to Tampa for the opening of the new Ebisu store. Because Derek is a weeb and they were offering all those wonderful kinds of KitKats that I usually only get at EPCOT. Among other things. Plus, I needed to swing by the office to get showerhead that was delivered there (see last week’s post). So, after making sure to load the rollator for The Wife, we hoped in the Wardmobile and made our way north. No problem picking up the showerhead, we got lunch at one of our favorite places, we made plans to meet up with The Brother afterwards – everything was going smoothly.

Then we got to the store – and saw the line that to get in. The line that went past two large storefronts and to the end of the shopping plaza. The Wife took one look at that line, looked at her knees, and informed me that there was no physical way she could endure that line. Even with the rollator. Disappointing, but we’re not the young folks we would like to be. We agreed to try again at a later date, texted The Brother, and headed over his way. We chatted with him for a bit. It was the first time The Wife and he were able to meet up since her latest surgery. After that, The Wife and I decided to go down to the Tampa 5.11 store, since they were running clearance. I picked up one of their attache cases among the discounted clothes. Did I need the attache case? Nope. After looking at it, my Maxpedition was better suited for getting my stuff to work. I rationalized on it being better to carry my personal laptop for any future trips.

The trip home wasn’t so much eventful as long. Plus rainy. Plus a Friday rush hour. Not a bad day, even if we didn’t get to do the featured event.

Return To Work Happenings – The Wife started back to work this week after being out for recovery. So, it’s getting back into routines that have lain at least partially dormant for the past three weeks. We worked last week on starting to get back to normal, but there are some things that only happen when it’s all “real.” The Wife did start clearing out her emails last week so she wasn’t walking into a mailbox apocalypse.

Voting Happenings – I did my civic duty and voted in the primaries. It was difficult, because, well, let’s just say the slates of candidates were unappealing at best and repulsive at worst. I could opine on the state of the parties in Florida, the need for a jungle primary versus the closed primary system, and more, but let’s just say this cycle is not endearing me to the current climate.

Best Wife Happenings – I walked into my office and found the below note. I will admit to suffering a bit from dust after reading it. I’m really excited to try it out. If it works as well as I expect, that little device will be added to my daily carry. There’s too many times when inspiration strikes and I need to write on one of my stories.

August Anime Recommendations

This first one was a pleasant surprise. I do enjoy rom-coms with adult protagonists, and this one’s premise was more amusing than anticipated.

And talking about interesting premises. This next one’s was very interesting. Just to warn you ahead of time – the ending is ambiguous. Not bad, just ambiguous.

This is the month for interesting premises. And here’s the fantasy entry. It started strong, but sort of petered out in the middle. Not enough to make me want to stop watching, but just as a heads up.

Our final entry is more of a standard high school rom-com with a couple of interesting twists. Not really high on my lists, but it was interesting enough for me to finish.

Promise to the Magic Heart – Chapter 37

Of the three gods said to preside over the intelligent races, it is the Goddess of Light who stands out as the most visible, the most tangible force in the daily lives of Her followers. Her presence is unmistakable; She empowers Her clerics with Grace to heal, comfort, and perform works in Her name. It’s small wonder, then, that the elves—so enamored as they are with Her divine constancy—find themselves baffled by humanity’s peculiar allegiance to the Protector. For unlike the radiant and ever-present Goddess, the Protector embodies the very essence of absent governance. No flashes of Grace here, no divine interventions – just a handful of scripture and a heavy reliance on human interpretation to muddle through. And yet, what truly complicates matters is the dwarves. Ah, the dwarves and their God of Iron—a deity swathed in secrecy. While the elves debate and the humans theologise, the dwarves do what they do best: close ranks and say nary a word. Try poking at the mystery of the God of Iron, and you’ll find your questions answered swiftly—not with words, but with a fist (or, worse still, a blade). In the end, while the Goddess of Light’s Grace dazzles and the Protector’s stoic silence perplexes, it is the God of Iron who remains the great unknowable force. And perhaps, for the dwarves, that is precisely the point. – Scholar Temin Temi, excerpted from the foreward of “Revolutionary Thinking on the Nature of Divinity.”

KURT

Kurt’s eyes fluttered open. Sharp pains in his back and side mixed with the collection of aches picked up over decades as a soldier, farmer, and adventurer. Pain was good. Pain meant he was alive. Groaning, he looked around. He was on a cot in a large tent. It was dim, but he could pick out the outlines of candelabras and privacy screens. Kurt slowly put together the last few things he could remember. Riding out on the Silk Trader to find out what the Purists were doing with those big towers. One of the Acolytes on the beach. The explosion that threw him into Lisandra Bay. The last thing Kurt could remember was sinking below the water. Whoever plucked him out of the bay bound his ribs and treated his other wounds. His armor, weapons, and clothes were nowhere to be seen. Kurt sat up on the cot. Movement brought more pain and an odd clinking sound. Kurt looked down. His leg was manacled to a heavy iron spike driven into the ground next to his cot.

His legs quivered as he stood up, but he managed to keep his feet under him. Gingerly, Kurt hobbled to the end of his chain – about a yard away from the spike. That was about halfway to the curtain dividing Kurt from the rest of the pavilion. He shuffled back to his cot and sat down. If the Purists rescued him from the sea and treated his wounds, they wanted him alive. Better to rest and get as much of his strength back as possible. It was maybe another ten minutes when two Purist soldiers strode through the curtain. These two had the hard look of veterans. They swept the room with their eyes before taking up posts at the entrance.

“First the son, and now the father,” said a tantalizingly familiar voice. The Edess Kul walked into the room. Her metal mask gleamed in the little light of the tent. Kurt looked at her for a long moment as his mind replayed the words and the voice. It was like a word on the tip of his tongue.

“Rin was here?” Kurt asked, “How did you survive that encounter?”

“The moment I told him about our people inside the Crystal Palace, he couldn’t leave fast enough to go to her side.” Kurt was so shocked to hear the Purists infiltrated the Crystal Palace, he almost missed the venom in the last words. That was the last clue he needed.

“Why do you still hate Rin, Ela?” Kurt asked. He surprised himself with how calm he managed to keep his voice. His mind was still grappling with the sudden realization the woman he thought dead was leading the enemy. Ela chuckled and motioned for the two guards to leave. They hesitated for only the briefest of moments before walking back through the curtain. Ela undid the heavy metal mask. She looked much as she did the last time Kurt saw her, right down to the wild look in her still-living eye.

“Do you know he told me that he thought of me as a sister?” Ela asked, the venom thick in her voice. “What brother does this to his sister?” She motioned at her dead eye. “What brother forces his sister to–” Ela bit off what she was about to say. Kurt didn’t need her to finish the sentence. He knew the moment Ela broke. The moment she was forced to put a shaft into Ral’s back to stop her soulbond from handing the princess back to Cull.

“Ral’s death wasn’t Rin’s fault. Or Illana’s fault. It wasn’t your fault either. The only person to blame for Ral’s death is Ral. He betrayed us. He betrayed you. He made you kill him,” Kurt said. Ela let out a primal scream of frustration.

“It was all of your faults! All of you pushed him to come with us!” Ela screamed, “He told you over and over that he shouldn’t be there, that he should go back to Lisandra, but none of you listened. She was just too precious, and that bastard Jevin manipulated me into joining his precious crusade because he knew Ral would follow me. I don’t even know why I joined.”

“You know why, Ela,” Kurt said, and gave her a sad look. “Because you wanted to save your people. Because you knew only Illana’s return would keep this empire from tearing itself apart.”

“Her!” Ela spat out. “I lost everything because of her!” Ela’s living eye bored into Kurt. For a moment, he was sure Ela was going to lash out. Instead, Ela wrapped her arms around herself and paced. Kurt heard her muttering something under her breath. It sounded like the same phrase over and over again, but he couldn’t make out the words.

Guilt flooded Kurt as he watched Ela. Ral broke her heart with his betrayal, killing him broke her mind, but it was their fault Ela was the Edess Kul. Instead of helping her heal, they locked her away. Oh sure, they were following Selene’s advice, but Selene wasn’t her normal, compassionate self at that time. Their cleric was grappling with her own broken heart from Marteen choosing Sonya over her as well as guilt from not saving Jevin from Ral’s poisoned dagger. None of them knew how to care for Ela, so they talked themselves into believing it would be best if Ela went away.

“Ela, dear, what are you doing in here?” asked a man’s voice. A human walked into the room. Shafford.

“He made me remember!” Ela half-shouted at Shafford, pointing at Kurt. “I don’t want to remember anymore.”

“Do you want me to take it from you again?” Shafford asked.

“It always comes back,” Ela cried into Shafford’s shoulder. “It always comes back.” Shafford stroked Ela’s short hair as he crooned to her. Ela stopped crying as her breathing slowed to a more relaxed pace. Shafford looked at Kurt and the dwarf recoiled from the sheer malice in the man’s eyes.

“Ela, we need you,” Shafford said, handing Ela her mask. “It’s almost time. You need to be ready.” Ela shook herself and then stood up straight. All outward signs of her madness vanished in an instant.

“Of course, my love,” Ela said. She gave Shafford a quick kiss on the cheek before donning her mask and striding out of the room. Shafford stood in the center of the room, regarding Kurt as if he were a particularly disgusting pile of sheep dung.

“When Rin showed up last night, and she didn’t have a breakdown, I thought I finally managed to banish the horror from her mind,” Shafford said. “I’ve worked so hard to mend her mind from what you did to her.” Much to Kurt’s surprise, there was true compassion in Shafford’s voice. Kurt was sure Shafford and the other Acolytes lied and manipulated Ela into becoming the Edess Kul.

“Do you really think you’re helping her by making her forget?” Kurt asked, using the same parental voice he used anytime he caught Rin doing something foolish. Kurt didn’t think Shafford could get any angrier. Kurt braced, but instead the human stood very still. The look of anger left the man’s face.

“Every time the memories break through, it hurts her more. I don’t know how she deals with the agony. Perhaps instead of suppressing it, we should excise the memory, instead.” Shafford’s sudden smile sent chills down Kurt’s spine. Rage turned to delight on the human’s face as Shafford mentally explored the idea.

“That just might work. Once we have the princess in hand, we will let Ela kill the girl. Perhaps, kill all of you as well. Let her cleanse her memory with blood.” As if he forgot about Kurt’s presences, Shafford spun on his heel and strode out of the room.

“Thank the Protector, I thought he would never leave,” came a whisper behind Kurt’s cot. The dwarf leaped out of his cot as a figure rose out of the shadows. The figure stretched before taking a step into the light. Kurt plopped down on the ground in surprise as the dirty face of Major Agnelli emerged. The human looked like he crawled through a muck pile.

“What are you doing here?” Kurt asked, in a low voice.

“Originally, I was just going to see if I could get some information on what trap the Purists were laying for the Capitol Army. Then I heard they captured a Hero of the Empire. I thought it was the sergeant, so I came to take a look,” the major answered, picking up the chain that bound Kurt to the iron spike in the middle of the room.

“How did you find me?”

“I saw them dragging you in,” Agnelli answered, tugging on the chain. “Elves, in my humble opinion, tend to be overly confident. It makes them miss little things. Like noticing someone skulking about their camp. Here’s your belongings, by the way.” Major Agnelli dropped Kurt’s clothing, his ruck, and his sword. He walked over to Kurt and looked at the lock on the manacle.

“We need to get you out of here. Something big is about to start. It sounds like they expect it to win this battle for them.”

“What?”

“I don’t know, but it sounded like it was some kind of magic,” Agnelli answered. The ranger inspected the lock and tugged at it a couple of times. “I might be able to break this lock open with a bit of gunpowder. I hope you’re ready for a very exciting escape.” Kurt grabbed the ranger’s wrist.

“Wait, there’s a quieter way,” Kurt said. He didn’t want to do it. He really didn’t want to do it. The dwarf grabbed the manacle, closed his eyes, and dove deep into his mind. It was a very long time since he walked down this hallway in his mind. Finally, he came to a dingy iron door with streaks of rust. Kurt braced himself and opened it.

The struggle was immediate and violent. It was always a struggle. Kurt hadn’t practiced for this fight since shortly after Rin came into his life. The force refused to be restrained and pushed against him harder. Just as Kurt feared he would lose the struggle, an opening emerged. Kurt grappled and forced the god in his mind into submission. With the struggle won, Kurt demanded his god grant his request. An instant later, the manacle surrounding his ankle melted off and pooled at his feet. Kurt quickly shoved the god back behind the door in his mind. Kurt stepped away from the melted metal as he panted. Struggling with the god always left him exhausted.

“What under the Protector did you just do?” Major Agnelli asked, his eyes wide with shock.

“The God of Iron…agreed…to help…with the…manacle,” Kurt managed between pants.

“Why didn’t you just do that before?” Major Agnelli asked, his tone somewhere between fascination and annoyance.

“The God of Iron…isn’t what one…could call…benevolent,” Kurt said, feeling his strength returning. He took a couple of deep gulps of air. “He’s not like your Protector or the Goddess.”

“Oh. So why did he help you now?” Major Agnelli said, helping Kurt into his clothes.

“Fought him for the favor,” Kurt answered, pulling on his breeches. “Maybe if the dwarves had a nicer god, like you humans, we would’ve had a very different outcome when the elves invaded our lands.” Major Agnelli chuckled at the comment as he held Kurt’s shirt out. Kurt tugged on the cotton shirt and then bent down to pull on his boots.

“Your clerics must be very strong,” Major Agnelli said as he moved up to the door. The human drew a pair of thick-bladed daggers long enough to be short-swords. He held his right dagger normally, but the left was in a reverse grip. It was eerily similar to how Ral used his daggers.

“Dwarves don’t have clerics,” Kurt said, “Wrestle with the God of Iron too much and He’s going to win – and once is all He needs. Then, you’re nothing but a thrall for him.” The human cursed softly.

“Well, Hero Volker, if you’re ready, I think it’s time we left the hospitality of the Purists,” Major Agnelli said.

“How are we going to do that?” Kurt asked. “I’m not like you or Rin. I can’t move quietly.” The ranger poked his head around the curtain, strode past Kurt and looked out from under the edge of the tent.

“I wouldn’t worry too much. The camp’s almost deserted,” Major Agnelli answered.

“We need to hurry,” Kurt said, hefting his sword. “If everyone’s gone to this ritual, then it’s something very bad for our people.”

Ward Manor Happenings – 08.13.26

Recovery Happenings – Well, the ice machine is put away. That’s a big thing around here. The Wife is still using cold packs, but it’s a step. Another big step is The Wife is driving. One of us is riding shotgun, but she’s driving for short jaunts to her PT and some small errands. She’s also able to go up the stairs normally, if slow and with the assistance of a cane. Yet, it’s still progress.

WTF Delivery Happenings – The Wife and I decided we needed a new shower head for the master bath. The current one is having a hard time flipping between the main head and the wand. Anywhoo, I found the one we wanted on Home Depot, ordered it, and paid through Apple Pay. The next morning, it was delivered before 0800. Sounds good, right? Well, for some reason, it was delivered to my office some fifty miles from Ward Manor. WTF? How in the hell did my work address get entered? It’s not in my shipping info on Apple Pay, nor have I had anything delivered there. Fortunately, I have a good team that secured the package, and I’ll just have to pick it up later. Thankfully, it’s not a critical repair.

Transformers Movie Happenings – Well, Fathom Events finally opened ticket purchases for the 40th anniversary “Apology Tour” event. And since I was early, I managed to score good seats. Not that I expect a packed house. At least it’s at the theater that The Wife and I like instead of the one we had to go to the last time they had a theatrical run.

One Of My Lights Have Gone Out

I should’ve known when she didn’t acknowledge my happy birthday text. Still, I didn’t think much of it. Then The Brother called me the next day. I figured he was going to ask me something that wouldn’t be appropriately captured through text.

The Brother: [Sister In Law] passed away yesterday.

My mind whirled as I sputtered out the verbal nonsense of a mind grappling with sudden, unexpected, horrific news. Sister In Law, wife of Rocket Engineer Brother, mother of The Niece and The Nephew, was gone. This didn’t make any sense. I hadn’t heard that she was sick or anything. How was she gone? This was a woman who had been in my life to one degree or another for more than two of my five decades. How could she be gone without warning and so suddenly?

The Brother went across the state to help out. The Wife asked if I needed to go as well, but I didn’t want to be underfoot while they were dealing with all the necessary details of a death. Then it was getting stuff in line and waiting for information.

Last week, they had a viewing. The Wife, unfortunately, was still recuperating from her surgery. She couldn’t handle the long car ride to go across the state. With much regret, she was forced to stay home while I headed out. It was one of those odd moments when I realized I always put SIL’s name into my GPS to navigate to their house. Damn.

It was small, intimate group that went to the viewing. Just a handful of family and friends. We were just there to support each other through this time.

There was a surreal moment when The Brother, Rocket Engineer Brother, Close Family Friend, and I sat up and looked at each other in disbelief to the background music. The soft piano music had been playing the moment we entered the chapel. What one would expect and quickly relegate to background noise. Until you are just sitting there and realize you know this song, and they couldn’t be playing this song, especially a soft piano version. The four of us just looked at each other. Why in the world was Gangsta’s Paradise included in this playlist? Which then led to a quick exchange of “Do you hear the lyrics for Gangsta Paradise or Amish Paradise?”

There are plans for a larger memorial service later. Too many folks were unable to come this fast. I’ll probably do another post when that happens. Right now, I think I’m just going to leave it here.